Monthly Archives: September 2005

Steroids, Rage and Anger

People with chronic disease

have daily struggles to go through even when all seems to be well and we are in relatively perfect health. There is the legacy

of all those years previously as a cripple. Financial, family, friends, home, all these are affected and leave a legacy that

still presents itself even after all should have been healed.

Perhaps not just an EFT post in itself, also awareness-raising

and a public apology for those poor recipients of an email reply-to-all that I did in response to a spammer.

To cut a long

story short, because of finances I found myself in a situation where I breathed in a great deal of oily soot. My flatmate, who

is very nice, simply did not appreciate what I really meant when I said no, I can’t have incense-burning in the home. After

all, I had initially said yes, not understanding myself why I should not expose myself to it. A week ago, he kept lighting one

after the other with his door ajar while I was too busy working on the computer to notice, till it was too late. I got no

sleep that night until I finally succumbed to the emergency supply of inhaler that I had kept just in case. Only that

emergency supply had an insidious steroid compound added to it, and I can’t take steroids, only this really was life or death,

so I had no choice. I had tapped on it, for the oil, the hot oil, the smell, the soot, the oil-coated soot, my distress, my

worry, my panic, everything, and by 5 AM was still wide awake struggling to breathe and exhausted. So I took the steroid-laced

inhaler and became a monster for the next week.

There is no describing the raw rage that rises within me on steroids.

Totally illogical, and previous to EFT, totally uncontrollable.

One morning I forgot to tap and got straight onto the

computer and also simultaneously met my flatmate. My rage exploded onto both. Although nowhere near the rage it would have

been and used to be before EFT, I still have the consequences to deal with. More legacy. I’m now tapping more until this

medication leaves my body.

Setup and Reminder:
“Even though I have this steroid horror and all its consequences in my body,

I deeply accept myself, with all my embarrasing rage, I accept myself unconditionally, even though I’m ashamed, I forgive

myself and promise to make enough money to get out of home-sharing forever, I am doing my best, I promise myself to keep making

more money so that I can afford better medical care in emergencies should they occur in the future, even though I exploded, I

remember that it was more controlled than before, I choose to continue trying to control this chemical rage, I choose to find

new solutions to old problems”
Reminder:
“This steroid”

The (only) good news is I found that if I tap regularly throughout

the day, my anger is contained and I am clear-headed enough to avoid confrontational situations.

When you have a chronic physical condition, anything that either emotionally or physically has a negative impact on you can make the condition worse. EFT is one way of throwing away the emotional rubbish collecting in your system. In the same way that we dispose of our household rubbish regularly for home cleanliness and hygiene, I use EFT to dispose of negative emotions for my optimal physical health. — EFT with Me, Suzanne Zacharia, PractitionerEFT Workshops Cape Town South AfricaEFT low-cost workshop London UK ——  EFT Master Practitioner Course UK —— Disclaimer – You are advised to consult with your medical practitioner before embarking on any course of alternative, complementary, or beauty therapy. Our use of systems that are trademarked or have a registered trademark represents our views and not necessarily those of the trademark owners.

Weight Loss Breakthrough

I have been trying the affirmation “I am 68 kg and that is my

weight”, and it just kept bringing up resistance in the form of “but…” and I didn’t hear beyond the “but”. So today, in the

gym on my bike, I tried it again, tapping with my hand and finger points on the handlebars. A better affitrmation came through

“I am 68 kg and I am capable”. Suddenly, I realised I was going really fast on the bike, feeling really good, repeating “I am

68 kg and I am capable, very capable, I am capable”. I didn’t need to do my usual bike motivation, this got me goiug on its

own.

So I was wondering why, still tapping my finger points on the handlebars. And then the answer finally came tumbling

out: Since I first fell ill about 19 years ago, terrible things happened to me as a direct or indirect consequence of having

fallen ill. The vast majority of these tragic things happened when I was 68 kg. I carried on with my gym session, then went

to the changing rooms and locked myself in the toilet for a few minutes. I tapped on the Gamut, doing the eye roll and

repeated “I am 68 kg and I am capable” and tears of relief came pouring out. I could see all those terrible events as

pictiures many, many pictures, as if they have just fallen out of a picture album. A great big pile of them. Only when I

thought of them in the past, they always somehow still felt connected as if my a thin string to my solar plexus. This time,

they were not connected, as a matter of fact, I only noticed they had been connected because this time they weren’t. The

effects of this therapy are at times best described as weird. But I am oh so happy! As I started to release the negativity, I

was directed to tap on my collarbone till I stopped crying a couple of minutes later. And then everything weas light. My skin

felt soft and warm and tingling with happiness, all around me, the most beautiful music was playing, everyone and everything

looked more attractive, more pleasing to the eye, I felt lighter, happy, satiated, no longer looking for snacks.

On the way

from the gym to my client’s home, I happily repeated “I am 68 kg and I am CAPABLE”. Totally satiated, I passed all the places

I would have been tempted by a snack before, and they were just not appealing in the least. I felt calm, at peace. On the way

back home from my client’s, I felt totally satiated still, and repeating my affirmation to myself, a number kept flashing at

me, 64. I intuited that it is better to keep tapping that 68 number though, as 68 was where all those terrible memories were

stored in my mind, and I want to totally free my body’s energy of them.

I feel so happy. I feel bathed in a pool of

serotonin. Amazing. I never realised I carried so much of that burden still, I thought I had tapped all that out already. I

keep feeling these waves of pure ecstasy rushing through my body.

When you have a chronic physical condition, anything that either emotionally or physically has a negative impact on you can make the condition worse. EFT is one way of throwing away the emotional rubbish collecting in your system. In the same way that we dispose of our household rubbish regularly for home cleanliness and hygiene, I use EFT to dispose of negative emotions for my optimal physical health. — EFT with Me, Suzanne Zacharia, PractitionerEFT Workshops Cape Town South AfricaEFT low-cost workshop London UK ——  EFT Master Practitioner Course UK —— Disclaimer – You are advised to consult with your medical practitioner before embarking on any course of alternative, complementary, or beauty therapy. Our use of systems that are trademarked or have a registered trademark represents our views and not necessarily those of the trademark owners.

Check out my new confidence program made when I got much better than at the time of this post. This post seems like such a long time ago. I am so glad I don’t suffer like that any more 🙂 See videos of me on the page of this link and see for yourself how much EFT has helped me with my health. Thank you for reading this post and your patience with some of the database corruption from when the site went down once. And please share with someone who needs it 🙂

Dieting

For better lung function, I

need to lose weight and change my diet. I have been finding it hard, and now I can direct my attention to my weight, as I have

cleared most of the other more pressing lung disease problems with EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques).

I did a treatment

today on the time when I was very poor (I was constantly struggling financially due to having a chronic disease) and an aunt

sent me money and I went to Pret A Manger and ate and ate and ate. My then boss was a cocaine addict who took way too much

cocaine before he took a potential client out, sold his company all the services that were promised to my largest client, and

the company refused to compensate me (I was on commission). My daughter had to forget going to University, that’s how bad it

was. His answer was “let her get a job”. So I treated using the shortcut from the KC to the KC, with “Even though I have this

Pret A Manger feeling, …”, reducing the feeling from 10 to 0, and then a memory from childhood popped up. I was about 4, and

I was noticing how my cousin has his parent’s love and I was being brought up by my grandmother and another aunt, without a

parent’s love. I stole a small toy from my cousin’s home (Sorry J, if you read this!). For the first time I saw that I did

not steal it because I liked boys toys (which I did) but because it represented a parent’s love. Used the full Basic Recipe

with “this stolen toy feeling” till it was gone, too upset initially to take SUDS, so I guess that’s a 10 down to a 0. Many

tears, much relief. Tapped on another, similar incident when I was 11, Full Basic Recipe, more relief. Then I finished by

imagining a strong golden line of energy and pure love connecting me to my mother’s soul, then to my father’s soul and

tapped, shortcut from the KC to the KC: “Even though I grew up without my parents’ love, my mother loved me, I choose to

connect to my mother’s love”, “Even though I grew up without my parents’ love, my father loved me, I choose to connect to my

father’s love”. I saw a flash of a big head looking lovingly at my baby head and remembered my parents’ true love, which I

will carry with me forever and cherish.

Somehow, the food is a substitute for not having anything, not having money to eat

enough when I was more ill, not having enough love when I was a child. I need to control my portions as we;ll as what I eat

because I have a leaky gut now, and it allows undigested bits of food into my bloodstream. This causes an allergic reaction in

my body, which irritates my lungs, and my left lung cannot take any more irritation, it does not eject mucus very well because

of the damage to a bronchial area, so the mucus builds up and it is as if I am drowning if I eat the wrong foods or eat too

much.

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When you have a chronic physical condition, anything that either emotionally or physically has a negative impact on you can make the condition worse. EFT is one way of throwing away the emotional rubbish collecting in your system. In the same way that we dispose of our household rubbish regularly for home cleanliness and hygiene, I use EFT to dispose of negative emotions for my optimal physical health. —- Stop Smoking Smofree Online and books  — Disclaimer – You are advised to consult with your medical practitioner before embarking on any course of alternative, complementary, or beauty therapy. Our use of systems that are trademarked or have a registered trademark represents our views and not necessarily those of the trademark owners.