Still in tears, I came here to tap.
My spouse got a new DVD series – Crime and Order, UK. The episode I have just seen involved a criminal going to Whittington Hospital for treatment. As soon as I saw the sign to Whittington Hospital, I noticed a spike of 1 out of ten and started rubbing my finger points while I watched. But at the end of this episode, the criminal boss, a high-standing respected member of the community, was found guilty on 17 counts of murder. As the jury returned the verdict of guilty – now I’m crying. Whittington Hospital was never found guilty for what they did to me. I still have some debt to pay because their “top consultant” made out the symptoms I reported did not exist and said I had never caught a virus but suddenly and inexplicably got a severe form of “asthma” literally overnight. I who had everything to live for now became ruined just because of this consultant. I could not claim disability benefits because he insisted there was nothing wrong with me but “asthma”. So if I had asthma you bastard why the hell did I go on my hands and knees coughing up blood every morning for 5 hours?! Why despite earning decent money do I now struggle every month to pay back debts? Why is my credit rating so crap?! He has never been brought to justice.
“Even though that poor excuse for a human being has never been brought to justice and I’ve never been given a chance to hear the word “guilty”, never been given a chance for all those days and nights I had to work low-paid jobs just to fund alternative health to help myself, I accept myself anyway”
“That vile despicable person, no, semi-person, that place where he worked, Whittington Hospital”
“Guilty on all counts”
“Guilty for what happened to me and my children as a result”
Tapping as I write:
Now the whole thing is a zero but the fact that I still have to pay back the remaining debt hurts. I need to have my hair done, the car needs repair, but we have to wait, despite earning enough, because every month, I have to pay back the cost of getting better. So that is down to a 2-3 now. I am grateful to not only be alive but much better. The remaining debt is very small compared to what it used to be. It was money well-spent. I will buy Henna powder and have my hair cut cheaply. I can breathe better than I have overall since 23 years ago when the Whittington malpractice happened. This is only temporary. I now feel at peace – 0 for now.
When you have a chronic physical condition, anything that either emotionally or physically has a negative impact on you can make the condition worse. EFT is one way of throwing away the emotional rubbish collecting in your system. In the same way that we dispose of our household rubbish regularly for home cleanliness and hygiene, I use EFT to dispose of negative emotions for my optimal physical health.
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